When I moved to Markham I had no family, no friends, no car, we lived in a basement apartment in an area where very few of my neighbours spoke the same language as me.
When I moved to Markham I had a newborn. A beautiful, tiny little one that was relaying on me. I was barely 18.
When I moved to Markham I had a choice. Option A was to believe what the world had to say about me; that as a teenage mother I was destined to ruin my life, my baby's life and the baby's father's life. That I would most likely live on welfare, never graduate high school, work low-income go-no-where jobs, not be able to maintain a good relationship with the child's father, abuse my child, etc…etc…
Or…Option B, I could choose to believe what God had to say about me. That I am fearfully and wonderfully made in God's image and that before I was born He knew me and loved me. I could believe that God had a good plan for my life and that I was worthy of that plan.
I choose to ignore the world, which was not so easy. Many unkind things have been said to me and about me. Many times I have had to stand with my head held high and ignore the judgemental looks and comments that people send young mothers. When I choose to ignore the world I also made a clear decision to believe God knew what He was doing when he gave a precious child to two, somewhat clueless teenagers. I choose to believe that God had given me talents and gifts that I could use to nurture my family, myself and my relationship with Him. I choose to believe that although sometimes things are tough and seem never-ending I had been given the ability to make a better life.
When I choose to ignore the world I choose to walk away from the people that didn't support me and my family. I choose to fill my community circle with people that believed in me and believed that God had a good plan for me and my family. Living my choice has not been easy. Many times I have cried, I have doubted my abilities, I have prayed, I have messed up, I have struggled, but I have never regretted my decision to believe in God and the person He created me to be. Through my struggles I have been able to see how blessed I am, more blessed than my 18 year old self ever would have believed possible.